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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Yay! Internet connection back up. Felt so weird without having internet connection when I switched on my laptop. Think we all couldn't live without the internet huh?

Anyway, this is for the people whom I have hurt unintentionally through my words..

First and formost, I apologised if anyone has been hurt by my words before. It's all unintentional and I dont mean any harm. I'm someone who has always been very striaghtforward and direct and I speak without thinking.

I dont know why but it guess its the environment in which I've been brought up in. My parents have never thought how each other would feel when they spew vulgarities and sarcastic remarks and comments to each other, even to a stage of abusing each other physically. Its insane and scary. Perhaps I'm like that because my parents are like that. That was the environment that I was brought up in. Yes, no doubt my parents showered their love, care and concern on me, these abusive scenes are much more vivid then the happier times.

Because they dont spare a thought for each other, I dont spare a thought for the other party before speaking as well. I say whatever that comes to my mind.

It could be because of this experience hence my behaviour. I was never one who would beat around the bush. If I'm unhappy, I'll definitely show that I am, with the tone and words that I use and I know that people can sense my unhappiness. I was never one who would choose my words and repharse what I have to say into "a nicer sounding sentence" that wont hurt.

Hence, sometimes, my words do hurt people unintentionally. Not one person, not two, but many many people.

I apologize if I have hurt you in one way or another, but the fact is that I do care. Well, at least what I say is how I feel and I dont wear a mask.

I guess its the life experiences that moulded me into who I am today. My mom was never brought down by my dad's words and vice versa. They still continued to work hard to bring us up. They did not let their marriage/words/abuse affect their lives, and I guess thats how I learnt not to be affected by what people have to say about me. If my parents can withstand the abuses and hurtful words from each other, why cant I? People can say whatever they want, I just shut myself out or learn from it.

Although I do wish that I came from a closely knitted family at times, I'm happy and contented with what I have right now, and I couldnt ask for more. :) I have learnt so much from all these family drama at home, things that I couldnt learn in school.

Yup, thats about it I guess.

It feels so good to be at home resting. HAHAHA. Hope you guys had fun in school today.

Bel, we'll have dinner another day alright? Love. :)

"Sticks and stones can break my bones but words can never hurt my soul."

Mel.



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